I started up blogging in early 2013 as a way of sharing my love for all things beauty related. I wanted to share with people my passion for something I really loved. I also found that putting all my efforts and energy into something I enjoyed was really fulfilling and somewhat gave me the confidence boost I needed back at that time. The year 2013 wasn’t the best year for me. Personal problems and relationship issues took their tole on me and I developed some serious anxiety issues and an extreme lack of self-confidence as a result. At the risk of sounding cliche, blogging took me out of that saddened time in my life and really made me feel like I had found my purpose and life wasn’t all just doom and gloom.
Fast forward to almost a year and a half later, life is much better. It just goes to show you that when you find something you really love doing, it can make a big difference in your life. Recently however, I find myself worrying again about the little things and asking myself some serious questions like; where am I going in life? And what the hell am I going to do career wise? Should I go travelling or stay here and find my dream job? These are problems that nearly every twenty-something year old woman (and men too) experience in life, but sometimes I just can’t help but feel overwhelmed by it all and somewhat alone in the process. It feels as though when you talk about it to someone, their immediate reaction is to say ‘You’re still so young, most 40 year old’s still don’t know what they want to do with their life’ or ‘You should just enjoy life and stop worrying about these things’. I am all for enjoying your youth while you have it, but sometimes I still can’t help but feel like running away and just hiding in my room for all eternity like a little child. Anyone else feel like this? Obviously I know that this is not the thing to do and I should just be grateful for what I do have. In the wise words of my mother ‘always remember there is somebody else out there worse off than you’.
On a more uplifting note.. I recently decided (after a lot of thinking), that I’m going to further my writing and blogging into a more professional manner and I have decided to go to college to do a degree in Journalism. I have loved writing since I was in primary school and I always had good spelling and grammar so why not combine the two loves and get myself some letters after my name. What have I got to lose? Blogging however, will still remain my number one love and even though I may not post as often as I would like, I sometimes need to remind myself that it is just a hobbie and shouldn’t be treated as a daily chore. As for my long-time aspirations to travel the world, maybe I can put them on hold for now.. or well, at least for the next 3 years anyway.
I would like to think that me writing this post today could ease the thought for some of you, that you are not alone in having those deep and meaningful life thoughts and although it seems to be consuming your mind for now, I guarantee with time your mind will be consumed by something else more positive. I was always someone who never took life too seriously and 2 years ago I would have read this post and cringed at the thought of me giving out ‘life’ advice and saying some seriously cheesey things, but the fact of the matter is everyone goes through this period in their life and it’s only now that I am realising it’s all just part of ‘growing up’ and I am definitely not alone.